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The Journey
Keisy’s POV [Human]
No, I definitely couldn’t say I enjoy being blind. But believing that there is no cure was somehow comfortable. All of us, all 3 of us were cripple – me, Munakuy and Qiz. Just in this order. Monekuy before Qiz. Qiz lost her importance for me since Munakuy lived with me. Well, with “us” I should say. Qiz became just a dead wood. I didn’t need her any longer. But I promised her to to let her live at my place, to share with her my Munakuy. Well, at least until we’ll get one more Tokota for her. I should find one as soon as possible. Maybe we should look for a wild one? That’s not so stupid idea. Frankly, there is no known wild Tokotas at the moment, but maybe we’ll find any? Just… I didn’t suppose that Tokota will find me first. Especially that it was the same Tokota, who attacked me five years ago…
Qiz’s POV [Human/Snow Witch]
This what Keisy said about the wild Tokota and hunting sounded li
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The wrong one
The wrong one
Keisy’s POV [Human]
What was wrong with Qiz again?
She irritated me a lot, but… did I have a choice?
Chasing dreams we use to think only about things we can gain. Rarely about these we can lose. Dreams are meant to make us happy, aren’t? Question is what does it really mean “the happiness”. Five years ago I was pretty sure I know the answer. But I didn’t. I still don’t really know it. It wasn’t proving I’m the best – I was – but it brought me more problems than it was worth to. Just exactly then I lost my eyesight. I risked everything and I lost everything. From elite handler I became… does it really matter any longer?
When I lost my eyesight I realized that I feel far better without it. Not right after, for long time I couldn’t conceals with it, but with time I did. At least partially. As if I was healed at last, whatever I was suffering from. Eyesight meant a pressure for me. That much pressur
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Yay! Finally I did it... ;). Took me reeeaaally a lot of time, I know XD, but I wanted to do it with such attention and dedication as it deserves instead answering just with singualar words.  

Tell me one thing cecegrace: why you tagged me? Just randomly? Or you really wanted to know these things about me? Or more interesting for you was fact if I'll answer or ignore it ;)? Or somthing else? Feel free to be sincere, I'm fine with that :D. I value sincerity more than good manners (as long as kept on cultural level of course ^^'). Anyway I hope you'll be satisfied with my post (or at least the fact I did it) :D.

So let's start...

1. Name
First question and so hard already... whyyyyy ^^'?
Frankly I don't really use my name, I mean the one writen in my ID card (excluding these formal cases when I have to). No one calls me like this. So I see no reason to write it down here. It's heavy, not really match me. Or does, but I simply reject it? Who knows ;)? I use to change names/nicknames time to time, just like too small clothes. Once I've heard that every name is a challange, shortened version of todo list which it brings. I have no idea if it's true (personally I don't believe in such stuff too much), but I like this idea, it sound so magical and romantic ;). It adds to gray life some fun and colours. So long time ago I started reading about names, their meanings, other people bearing the same ones and analyse how it reflects in myself. I also started changing then when I wish. When I regarded their todo list as done.
The one I use on dA is really old, I don't use it in other cases any longer in this form. Here... I don't have premium account to change it XD, and frankly I don't have idea which one I'd chose as new.
Why I choosed such nickname these 9 year ago when I made this account? It sounds like name and surname, but that were 2 separated nicknames I used that time. As you can see they are linked with "i", what in Polish language means "and". So it means "Kizzy and Keinstein". This pair was something like Jekyll and Hyde (I see on Polish wiki that for English speakers "Jekyll and Hyde" is synonine of someone not sincere (it's true?), so it's not what I mean, I mean its meaning for Polish speakers, it means here someone calm outside and very dangerous, psychopatical inside). So Kizzy was my calm fallen in love girlish face, while Keinstein was this evil part of me - agressive, rebelious, and following his (yeah, he's male, Kizzy is female) own way.
Name Kizzy was crafted by my first love. Very painful love. It ended really badly. I stop eating, fell into anorexia (165cm and 35kg weight (my normal should be 56kg)). Kizzy couldn't belive it is end. She prefered to die instead believing it's end. So I let her die, why not XD? When she died at last, I finally started recovering. Now my weight is quite ok, but I have tendency to weight less than I should and I'm a bit skinny. But I really like being like this.
Keinstein's name was crafted from Kain + Frankenstein. I really loved Kain's character in Legacy of Kain series (I've learnt English myself only to understand this game (in school I had French only)! I was downloading script and translating dialogue by dialogue with dictionary XD I made 60 A4 pages of translation! Then I realized - wow! I understand English, I can communicate with people! Doing hundreds of mistakes is a minor thing here... ^^'). But I never take names of characters or people I like like this. So I altered it. I wanted to give it feeling of monster, something evil, opposite to Kizzy, so I mixed it with Frankenstein, I changed "a" in Kain to "e" that it sound German like. And it was done. Hmm... if I ever change my nickname here maybe just to Keinstein? Frankly I still use it. He survived and he's still one of my faces. He evolved a bit, got more (far more) mature, but he's still there. What more if I talk to myself I call myself just Keinstein and I decline it in male form. Hmm... it sounded like some kind of psychosis symptome... XD
So... that's about my (nick)name(s) XD.

2. Star Sign: Leo (if you're more interested I wrote more about it here: fav.me/daufdfb)

3. Average hours of sleep: usually 6-7h, but can vary from 5h to 14h

4. Last thing googled: "Jeckyl and Hyde" to ensure if I type it correctly and to realise I do not, it should be Jekyll, not Jeckyl XD

5. Favorite fictional character(s): Kain from Legacy of Kain of course, and few other bad guys (I generally have tendency to prefere antagonists :D (Keinstein's legacy after Kizzy's death XD?)) and of course most of my OCs (especially antagonists. You know how I create my characters? My sis Szczeniaczek noticed this weird algorith I repeat over and over: I create a charcater-protagonist, then I create an antagonist(1) for him (yeah, I mostly create male characters), I like the antagonist(1) far more, so I start neglecting the protagonist. I start treating the antagonist(1) like protagonist and I create for him his personal antagonist(2) XD. I totally forget about protagonist and have fun with antagonist(2), who is even better than the antagonist(1). In the end I create a woman for some balance (but I quickly neglect her too). So the essence of all my stories are these 2 antagonists. The protagonist and the woman become minor charcaters. That's a blueprint (do I use this word correctly in this context?) of every well constructed story I create (I don't count these not well constructed).

6. Live Action Film: I have no favourite. In general I don't like watching films too much. I could list some films I value, but I can't say that I'm somehow crazy about.

7. Animated Film: Wolf's Rain (Darcia was sooo stunning with his madness and noble way of being! I loved him! *__*) and Ghost in the Shell: Stand Alone Complex 2nd GIG and Stand Alone Complex: Solid State Society (and Kuze as antagonist... :heart:) - I didn't see the new movie yet, so no spoilers please! Anyway, just like with life movies - I don't watch a lot. I watched anime when I was younger. Since I don't draw manga styled stuff I don't watch it at all. Other animated movies too.

8. Current attire: loose clothes which I can put on my bandaged leg. Very warm. It's cold here today. I hate coldness.

9. When did you start this account?: 9 years ago (can I check somewhere the exact date?)

10. Number of watchers: 69 at the moment. But half year ago it was 14 only XD. Since I took care of myself, my artworks and my profile there is more and more :D. But the real reason is that I stopped being so scared about people and I started normally talk with them at last XD.

11. What do you post?: Mostly digital paintings, I'd name it dark fantasy (?). I'm not sure of the genre of this that I create XD, I just create. Anyway, I draw mostly characters. But I upload also traditional artworks and I write articles.

12. Do you get a lot of comments: I wouldn't say call it "a lot", but it's still more than I can asnwer on time XD. I am so slow in that T__T.

13. Why did you choose the username: At university I was dealing with shovinism a lot (I was only woman on computer science) and I struggled with choosing between to be a nice cute kitty (Kizzy) or a driven mad lion (Keinstein) so my nickname reflects my state of mind in that time ;). As I mentioned in question 1 - it's not really up-to-date ^^'.

Tags? Any of my Watchers feel free to fill it if you want :). (If non-watchers want too also feel free). Just let me know in comment or tag me in your post ;). I don't tag personally, because some people are fine with it, so just hate it and I don't know who is who XD (personally I'm usually fine with it if it makes sense but I'm really slow with it - to fill this one I needed 2 month XD). Anyway have fun!
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Kizzy-i-Keinstein

Artist | Hobbyist | Digital Art
Poland
About me

I love drawing and writing. I am the professional game developer, I worked for few years in game dev industry and now I’m starting my own studio.

I’m interested in astrology, I listen to k-pop and c-pop, but also Ludovico Einaudi. And I love cat ^__^ (I have 2 crazy ones).

Sometimes I reply very slow and I don’t want that someone feel touched or disrespected with it. I really appreciate all comments, Notes, favs, Watches and all positive gestures from you all, so let me explain myself. I always do my best to reply to all comments, Notes and all your activity here I get, just sometimes I need up to few days (months? ^^' uh.. it happens too....XD) to do that, even if you see another activity on my profile like posting new stuff or faving, giving llamas etc, but this funny film explains it quite well I think: youtu.be/bJnflQgrNT4 ^^. I always do my best to give constructive replies, to visit people who visit me and leave any feedback, so I prefer to give myself time to reply you with full attention and respect + have some time to charge my „social energy bar” mentioned in that film ^^’. So give me some time please ^___^, I surely will reply.

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Yay! Finally I did it... ;). Took me reeeaaally a lot of time, I know XD, but I wanted to do it with such attention and dedication as it deserves instead answering just with singualar words.  

Tell me one thing cecegrace: why you tagged me? Just randomly? Or you really wanted to know these things about me? Or more interesting for you was fact if I'll answer or ignore it ;)? Or somthing else? Feel free to be sincere, I'm fine with that :D. I value sincerity more than good manners (as long as kept on cultural level of course ^^'). Anyway I hope you'll be satisfied with my post (or at least the fact I did it) :D.

So let's start...

1. Name
First question and so hard already... whyyyyy ^^'?
Frankly I don't really use my name, I mean the one writen in my ID card (excluding these formal cases when I have to). No one calls me like this. So I see no reason to write it down here. It's heavy, not really match me. Or does, but I simply reject it? Who knows ;)? I use to change names/nicknames time to time, just like too small clothes. Once I've heard that every name is a challange, shortened version of todo list which it brings. I have no idea if it's true (personally I don't believe in such stuff too much), but I like this idea, it sound so magical and romantic ;). It adds to gray life some fun and colours. So long time ago I started reading about names, their meanings, other people bearing the same ones and analyse how it reflects in myself. I also started changing then when I wish. When I regarded their todo list as done.
The one I use on dA is really old, I don't use it in other cases any longer in this form. Here... I don't have premium account to change it XD, and frankly I don't have idea which one I'd chose as new.
Why I choosed such nickname these 9 year ago when I made this account? It sounds like name and surname, but that were 2 separated nicknames I used that time. As you can see they are linked with "i", what in Polish language means "and". So it means "Kizzy and Keinstein". This pair was something like Jekyll and Hyde (I see on Polish wiki that for English speakers "Jekyll and Hyde" is synonine of someone not sincere (it's true?), so it's not what I mean, I mean its meaning for Polish speakers, it means here someone calm outside and very dangerous, psychopatical inside). So Kizzy was my calm fallen in love girlish face, while Keinstein was this evil part of me - agressive, rebelious, and following his (yeah, he's male, Kizzy is female) own way.
Name Kizzy was crafted by my first love. Very painful love. It ended really badly. I stop eating, fell into anorexia (165cm and 35kg weight (my normal should be 56kg)). Kizzy couldn't belive it is end. She prefered to die instead believing it's end. So I let her die, why not XD? When she died at last, I finally started recovering. Now my weight is quite ok, but I have tendency to weight less than I should and I'm a bit skinny. But I really like being like this.
Keinstein's name was crafted from Kain + Frankenstein. I really loved Kain's character in Legacy of Kain series (I've learnt English myself only to understand this game (in school I had French only)! I was downloading script and translating dialogue by dialogue with dictionary XD I made 60 A4 pages of translation! Then I realized - wow! I understand English, I can communicate with people! Doing hundreds of mistakes is a minor thing here... ^^'). But I never take names of characters or people I like like this. So I altered it. I wanted to give it feeling of monster, something evil, opposite to Kizzy, so I mixed it with Frankenstein, I changed "a" in Kain to "e" that it sound German like. And it was done. Hmm... if I ever change my nickname here maybe just to Keinstein? Frankly I still use it. He survived and he's still one of my faces. He evolved a bit, got more (far more) mature, but he's still there. What more if I talk to myself I call myself just Keinstein and I decline it in male form. Hmm... it sounded like some kind of psychosis symptome... XD
So... that's about my (nick)name(s) XD.

2. Star Sign: Leo (if you're more interested I wrote more about it here: fav.me/daufdfb)

3. Average hours of sleep: usually 6-7h, but can vary from 5h to 14h

4. Last thing googled: "Jeckyl and Hyde" to ensure if I type it correctly and to realise I do not, it should be Jekyll, not Jeckyl XD

5. Favorite fictional character(s): Kain from Legacy of Kain of course, and few other bad guys (I generally have tendency to prefere antagonists :D (Keinstein's legacy after Kizzy's death XD?)) and of course most of my OCs (especially antagonists. You know how I create my characters? My sis Szczeniaczek noticed this weird algorith I repeat over and over: I create a charcater-protagonist, then I create an antagonist(1) for him (yeah, I mostly create male characters), I like the antagonist(1) far more, so I start neglecting the protagonist. I start treating the antagonist(1) like protagonist and I create for him his personal antagonist(2) XD. I totally forget about protagonist and have fun with antagonist(2), who is even better than the antagonist(1). In the end I create a woman for some balance (but I quickly neglect her too). So the essence of all my stories are these 2 antagonists. The protagonist and the woman become minor charcaters. That's a blueprint (do I use this word correctly in this context?) of every well constructed story I create (I don't count these not well constructed).

6. Live Action Film: I have no favourite. In general I don't like watching films too much. I could list some films I value, but I can't say that I'm somehow crazy about.

7. Animated Film: Wolf's Rain (Darcia was sooo stunning with his madness and noble way of being! I loved him! *__*) and Ghost in the Shell: Stand Alone Complex 2nd GIG and Stand Alone Complex: Solid State Society (and Kuze as antagonist... :heart:) - I didn't see the new movie yet, so no spoilers please! Anyway, just like with life movies - I don't watch a lot. I watched anime when I was younger. Since I don't draw manga styled stuff I don't watch it at all. Other animated movies too.

8. Current attire: loose clothes which I can put on my bandaged leg. Very warm. It's cold here today. I hate coldness.

9. When did you start this account?: 9 years ago (can I check somewhere the exact date?)

10. Number of watchers: 69 at the moment. But half year ago it was 14 only XD. Since I took care of myself, my artworks and my profile there is more and more :D. But the real reason is that I stopped being so scared about people and I started normally talk with them at last XD.

11. What do you post?: Mostly digital paintings, I'd name it dark fantasy (?). I'm not sure of the genre of this that I create XD, I just create. Anyway, I draw mostly characters. But I upload also traditional artworks and I write articles.

12. Do you get a lot of comments: I wouldn't say call it "a lot", but it's still more than I can asnwer on time XD. I am so slow in that T__T.

13. Why did you choose the username: At university I was dealing with shovinism a lot (I was only woman on computer science) and I struggled with choosing between to be a nice cute kitty (Kizzy) or a driven mad lion (Keinstein) so my nickname reflects my state of mind in that time ;). As I mentioned in question 1 - it's not really up-to-date ^^'.

Tags? Any of my Watchers feel free to fill it if you want :). (If non-watchers want too also feel free). Just let me know in comment or tag me in your post ;). I don't tag personally, because some people are fine with it, so just hate it and I don't know who is who XD (personally I'm usually fine with it if it makes sense but I'm really slow with it - to fill this one I needed 2 month XD). Anyway have fun!
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Just my thoughts and conclusion about trying to create a perfect TODO list. Nothing pretending to be only truth ;). That is my truth, for today. I can't guarrant that for some time I won't create a new, better truth XD. Anyway here is my current one, the best I have at the moment :D.

They say we have right side of brain (creative) and left side of brain (analytical). Biologically it's true (really, once I saw a real human brain in jar in biopsychology department of Jagiellonian University in Kraków, and I can admit, that it looks like these depicted on (in?) films XD). But in practice I can easily see that besides creative and analytical parts I have also at least social and management (or should I write managing? which one is correct? XD) parts. Ok, I don't really care which part of my brain contains which activity, anyway I find it really interesting to list these activities and analyse how do they affect my following and not following the TODO list tasks.

Once I've read that scientists discovered that to switch from one activity to another we need 15 minutes. So that's why (or at least it's one of possible reasons) we can spend whole day doing a lot of stuff but in the evening realise that actually we did really litte. But if we'll count 15-30 minutes tasks and sum up and count all breaks and sum up, we'll see that we've spent half of day on switching! Yeah, we need breaks, that's true, but they can be managed in far better way.
Of course we can group activities. Then we don't need time for switching because we just continue the same type of task. It's great safe of time, because I do "1h drawing + 1h drawing" instead of "1h drawing + 15 minutes switching + 1h programming". We can't work whole day without any breaks, but making them too often is not really needed and becomes wasting of time like this.

When I was working in game industry employed as project manager (now I'm starting my own business) I tested many task management styles, not only fine for me, but for whole my team (up to 10 people, mostly programmers) and I discovered that the best is 4x2h tasks per day. But task here doesn't mean literally one singular task (it's impossible that all our activities take always 2h), but more group of similar tasks or fragment of bigger task. This 2h time incuded also time for switching (breaks). More complex tasks were cut to 2h units. But what about quick easy tasks like answer simple e-mail, fix easy stupid bug etc?

In game industry tasks has their importance levels (it mostly refers to bugs, but can be applied to new tasks too). All tasks are marked with any of 3 letters: A, B or C. And in my management in description it was written how time it will take (how many 2h units). A task marked with A is crucial - it's impossible to play the game with such bug (say, to pass a level you need to collect 100 points, but on level you can collect only 80, so you'll never pass this level), B is quite important, it's hard, but not impossible to play the game (say, you need to kill a boss to pass a level, you should get magical sword before the boss, but there is bug, you can't reach it, you have to fight with the boss with bare hands what is extremely difficult), C is minor and despite it irritates, it doesn't bother the gameplay (like ugly pixelized graphic, not adjusted texts, missing translation etc). So that's classic rule (these ABC marks), which you'll find in any book about game dev industry. Of course importance grades influences priorities. But only priorities didn't work very well. So I added 3 more marks for tasks in system: crash task (higher than A - game crashes), dangerous (any of ABC, but programmer assigned to the task (or any other) had no idea how long it will take) and the quickshot task.

Quickshot tasks were always open for everyone, not assigned to any programmer. So when they were tired with hard normal 2h task they could rest a bit by using once a day one of these "2h time" for doing any quickshot tasks they wished and they did as many of them as they could within 2h (it was reported near 1000 quickshot tasks to do in that project so always was something to do and they could chose any they wished). These tasks were really simple like correcting typos, linking missing graphic file and such stuff 2-30 minutes each (if any took more than 60 minutes I used to change it to normal (A/B/C) task status, not a quickshot). Crash (even if it was a quickshot in the same time) always was marked as Crash and Dangerous as Dangerous. They had of course in description written if it's A, B or C, that programmers knew priority, but adding these extra marks really helped me managing the project and my team was really happy of my management. Why I bother you with theory of managing game production? Because it can be easily applied on everyone's daily TODO list :).

You can say that there are so many other methods for "normal" (opposite to geeks like me XD) people like, say, Eisenhower's matrix. Yeah, that's true. Eisenhower's matrix is a really great tool. Just quickly about for readers who don't know it. It's about grouping your tasks to 4 categories:
- important AND short deadline (i.e. exam next week, game release etc.) - do as first
- important AND long deadline (i.e. learning foreign language, writing book) - do as second
- not important AND short deadline (i.e. pay bills, do shoppings) - do as third
- not important AND long deadline (i.e. learn embroidery because it's so cool) - forget about, doing all above you don't have time for this XD.

What's the difference between mine and this one? Can they be used together? Difference is that mine is for 1 day TODO list (mark all your tasks with Crash/A/B/C/Dangerous/Quickshot and compose your day taking into account their importance). The other is for many days/months/years. They can be used together and should. Mine can be applied on each of Eisenhower's category, it's just more specific. In game industry we work mostly on TODO list from 1st Eisenhower's category.
Cutting tasks to 2h units helps to predict how long it will take. If it's a big task, cut it to 2h pieces. If in creating really complex MMO online game for mobile devices there was no tasks which couldn't be cut to 2h tasks, I guess that there is no such tasks in any industry of someone's life. Everything can be cut to 2h units. What more a human being can't keep his attention longer than for these 2h. He needs a break for tea or something after each 2h. What about tasks which don't need 2h, but far less or task which we can't estimate? That's why I crafted Quickshot and Dangerous category. What about special really important sudden tasks? If you have many of A tasks (say 100), feel free to mark 1-5 with Crash label (or name it as you wish, outside game dev industry this name doesn't make too much sense XD). For me this set works really well.

Ok, so I've covered prioritising (Crash/A/B/C/Quickshot/Dangerous method), prioritising vs deadline (Eisenhower's matrix), but here is one element missing. Last time I wondered why one day can do all my tasks, the other I really struggle with it. Because of required time of switching itself.

So going back to these mentioned scientists - they discovered that average for switching is 15 minutes. Ok, but it's just an average. Observing my averge span I realised it's different in different cases. It can vary from 5 minutes to even 2 days (!) to reach my max efficiency. And this what influences the span is both the type of activity we switch to and the type of activity we switch from. So for example I need far less time to switch from business stuff like planning meetings, preparing presentations etc to programming, but it takes really a lot before I switch from programming to drawing or writing. However from business things to writing is easier, than from programming to writing. But from business to drawing is far harder than from business to writing, despite both are regarded as creative. These switchings also are not mirror (mirrored?). For example from business to drawing is harder for me than from drawing to business.

So to make a TODO list, which makes sense it's worth to remember:
- to correctly mark tasks' importance level, deadline and count approximate time, which it the most probably will take (2h units)
- to not place too different types of activity right after each other (like programming and writing book)
- to know own predispositions and personal switching span for each configuration of activity types

My types of tasks?
(I) Programming - highly analytical energy + high concentration
(II) Writing - highly creative energy + dreamy meditation-like mood
(III) Design - creative energy + high concentration
(IV) Drawing - creative energy + dreamy meditation-like mood
(V) Other things - oh, what a brilliant category!? How can I analyse it? XD Well, it's mostly boring quickshots to do, so I'll need to change the name of this category to Quickshots - any energy + average concentration
(VI) Languages - analytical energy + average concentration
(VII) Exercises and learning (daily) - but what about? Uh... my names are terrible XD. I usually put here watching video tutorials... hmm.. maybe I should change the name of category to more specific? I'm not sure... - analytical energy + average concentration
(VIII) Fun, rest and relax - and one more brilliant category... what do I require to do these "tasks"? To be tired? Well... checking box method is to want to mark a check box as done. I can't *want to be tired* to be able to do any task from this list... So maybe instead of this category, when I'm tired just use a quickshot list? My main problem is that I don't know how to rest, how to relax. Playing games, watching TV I feel I waste time, so I don't. I work 14h/day and then after few days I sleep 14h/day what is not really handy, not mentioning it's unhealthy and makes no sense. Uh... any tips on this field? Yeah, I am workaholic, I know... uh... Maybe start using at last 4x2h? (Since I work for myself I ignore so many good practices I used working for others...) And after that whatever I want? Hmm... that's a serious issue... Anyway I should remove this category. It doesn't make any sense put in such light...
(IX) Social relations - social energy + average concentration

Hmm... On begining of article I mentioned "managment energy" but I didn't use it on the list above. I surely use it, but... when if not in these above? Seems I missed one very important category: Planing and analysing. What does it include? Making my todo list and writing articles like these (more personal which I keep in my notebook and these more general which I post as my journals) - I don't plan them, I write them spontaneously, just writing down my way of thinking at the moment and analysing my own thoughts in fly, just as if I'd talk with someone. So:

(X or VIII <- it's empty now) Planning and analysing - management energy + average concentration

Conclusions:
- I must update my tasks categories.
- I can't place drawing, programming and writing in the same day, especially if I have a serious tasks of each to do. Each of these tasks should be in separated day, then I'm the most efficient.
- Plan only 4x2h units of time, not more, else I get really tired after some days.
- Master Eisenhower's matrix and Crash/A/B/C/Dangerous/Quickshot method even more as I did so far.
- Learn how to rest at last... >___>.
- Write down all my tasks of any categories and use on them these methods in updated version to create a new, better TODO list :D.

By the way my method needs a name I think ;). It works for years and in my opinion deserves for a name at last :D. Something like QRABCD from Quickshot-cRash-A-B-C-Dangerous [spelled "kraybeeseedee" or "kraybeesd" <- this latter sounds like CryBeast XD, so maybe this one ^^', it's easy to remember, or "krabseed" perhaps more natural, yeah I like the "krabseed" ^^]?
  • Reading: grant shopping list...
  • Drinking: green tea
Just a few my thoughts, nothing like "only correct approach" or something. I look for ways to learn myself, here just share my discoveries :).

1. Find a piece you like (try to find a correct one, without issues, if you're beginner it may be hard to tell if it's correct or not, so the best solution is to choose old master's artworks you like). I know that some people want to alter some elements. Fine, if you feel that, do that. But in my case I copy a whole, even if I don't like some elements. So the best solution it so choose a piece you really like and want to copy it whole. If you alter, it's far harder to judge the result, but not impossible. Drawing is about having fun (at least in my case) so have fun :D.
2. Do your best to copy it as accurately as possible. If you are unable to do it, it means you need to learn how to see and observe. In my case the book "Drawing on the Right Side of the Brain" by Betty Edwards resolved this problem, so if you struggle with it, just read this book and do exercises. It should help :).

Usually such study ends here and one hopes it will magically work in his or her new artworks. Yeah, it will if you do a lot of studies, but it's a slow process if not directed. So I added to my list next steps I find useful.

3. Compare the process of making your common artworks with the process you used to copy a piece and make some conclusions. In my case:
1. My pieces: sketchy lineart with ink tool, freely blocking colours, adding values, inking and painting and again inking and painting and repeating it until I'm happy (or bored ;)). I use a lot of layers and layers effects. Sometimes select tool.
2. My copies: marking edges with thick texture square brush, filling the areas with base colours, building colours, fixing proportions and colours to make them accurate, lining with thin square texture brush to catch values (hard to describe it, but you can see on my studies like here sta.sh/01t3awj52ccm), refining with small hard round brush. 1-2 layers only (if I use 2, then one is for background, one is for characters). No layer or brush effects, no select tool, just pure brush work like on real canvas. And no ink tool T_T.

Well... why it's sooooo different?! What from the copying process can I add to my common pieces? And will it make sense? Let me see...

I imagine, say, Qiz, one of my OC.
First step would be to mark edges with thick texture square brush. But... what edges? I don't have a ready piece to copy, I see no edges here. So that's why I fail in first step. I can't execute it. There is missing something. Any step before the current one... it's probably matter of having a base. Ok, how can I get this missing base? Can I use first step from my common process? I could try. Ok, so I'll have a base and I can switch to thick square texture brush. Yeah, I could do it. But it fails again in step "fixing proportions and colours to make them accurate". It requires a reference or good visual library (==advanced level). Ok, I could use some references. Rest should work. But I shouldn't force myself to use brushes and one layer only. But I should limit effects and pay more attention to working with normal colour. Ok, I can do that.
Conclusions:
- pay more attention to make a good sketch
- use references
- use copying process if possible instead of my common process
Just a 3 little changes and it makes a huge difference! I must try it out soon ^___^.

Why studying old masters, not nowadays'?
In one educational video about drawing on YouTube (sorry I don't remember which one, I watch a lot of them, so I started giving links to them on my todo list :D, but this was is not included :(, I watched it 2 months ago as I remember), where the author was talking about copying old master's artworks he explained why it's better to choose old masters instead of today's great artist. The answer is really simple - because their works survived trends, moods and after 100, 200, 500 years they are still regarded as stunning and beautiful. It's hard to say which work of today's artist will survive. We can like them and admire, but we are immersed in our reality and influenced by it more than we suppose. We are unable to see clearly. Proof? I observe my country and world politics. Many things are sometimes weird for me and I can't predict how it will end. But since I started reading about history, especially about historical politics 100-300 years ago I start seeing analogies. It was impossible to see it being immersed like this. Now it's more clear for me, knowing more about history I know more about nowadays politics, but there is no counterpart of political history for drawings. We can refer to today's goals, fine, we find old masters we like and we can copy them to achieve better results in our own works, but we can't predict which artworks of the best today's artist will survive next 100-300 years or will be forgotten. We are too immersed it our realities. That is what that YouTuber told. And it makes a lot of sense for me.
Of course no one can forbid us copying today's artists. If they learn copying old masters they probably are also that good (at least in technique, because in old masters case it's also theme, mood, message and such stuff) in most of cases or at least good enough to be copied by beginners and educative for them.
Ok, I use the word "beginner" here and there and I may sound as if I was regarding myself on higher level and preaching the others. No, it's not like this. I also regard myself as beginner, especially after Istebrak's smashing videos T_T (she's awesome teacher! I've learnt a lot from her videos). But it's clear that I'm not a total beginner, so to make it even cleared I made the following list of advance levels:
1. Total beginner.
2. Doing his best beginning beginner.
3. Intermediate beginner. <- here I place myself XD
4. Advanced beginner <- so it's beginner in context used by Istebrak XD
5. Intermediate
6. Advanced
7. Professional
8. Master
  • Reading: my grant docs and Ch1 of my novel...
  • Drinking: green tea
Keisy’s POV [Human]

No, I definitely couldn’t say I enjoy being blind. But believing that there is no cure was somehow comfortable. All of us, all 3 of us were cripple – me, Munakuy and Qiz. Just in this order. Monekuy before Qiz. Qiz lost her importance for me since Munakuy lived with me. Well, with “us” I should say. Qiz became just a dead wood. I didn’t need her any longer. But I promised her to to let her live at my place, to share with her my Munakuy. Well, at least until we’ll get one more Tokota for her. I should find one as soon as possible. Maybe we should look for a wild one? That’s not so stupid idea. Frankly, there is no known wild Tokotas at the moment, but maybe we’ll find any? Just… I didn’t suppose that Tokota will find me first. Especially that it was the same Tokota, who attacked me five years ago…

Qiz’s POV [Human/Snow Witch]
This what Keisy said about the wild Tokota and hunting sounded like a really good plan. He had a really great knowledge about these dogs. I blindly trusted his words and I followed him to forest.
Tea Rose also accompanied us, but we often had to stop to let her rest a bit. She still was sick and weak, despite it passed already over a week since we’ve got get with Keisy. But she was sick not that much to be disallowed to leave home. Just opposite, she should go for a walk as much as she could, for her health.
Keisy became really quiet since we’ve got her. He took care of her with such dedication, that I never supposed that this man can be so warm and full of love. Tea Rose influenced him so much, that he even stopped quarreling with me.
But good things never last long… We indeed found a wild Tokota. Really wild one. And dangerous. Everything happened so fast… Now I was standing in snow stained with blood. I even wasn’t sure whose blood. Keisy was gone. Tea Rose was tearing my arm, she wanted that I move, that I follow her. I… I just didn’t want to be here!

Munakuy’s POV [Tokota]
Oh, come on, Qiz! We have to go! Please little witch, move!

Keisy’s POV [Human]
- It was not enough for you last time? – I heard familiar voice. I rose up from cold ground. Person who told it… it wasn’t human voice, but also it wasn’t Tokota’s. It was something between these two. Did it mean that legends were true? That the oldest Tokotas could change into humans and the oldest humans into Tokotas? That was the reason of this strange voice? Or I’ve lost that much blood that it caused hallucinations?
- Who are you? – I asked. I couldn’t see him. I knew that voice, but I didn’t want believe that was him.
- Don’t ask so stupid questions, Keisy – this time his voice was normal, human. And I had no doubts that it was voice of my father. He was that Tokota? That was him, who was responsible for damaging my eyesight?! But why?
- Why do you hate me so much!?

Qiz’s POV [Human/Snow Witch]
Tea Rose finally convinced me to mount on her back and go to look for Keisy. We found him in Tokota’s den. Unconscious. Thankfully there was no Tokota. Keisy was injured, but not seriously. I put him on Tea Rose’s back and we left den’s area, but it was too far away that we reach home and Tea Rose was really tired. I was really worried about her. She was breathing heavily. Why she wanted so much to find Keisy?
It was getting dark and I needed to set a campfire… I was so scared, cold and tired! I shouldn’t listen to Keisy! All that was his fault!

Munakuy’s POV [Tokota]
I was tired, but happy. These people took care of me, I wanted to care of them too. Finally there was someone who was important for me in  my sad life. I was feeling really bad, but I stood up to help Qiz find some dry wood and set the campfire. This girl was lost in everything what she was doing. So alone. But she was alone because she abandoned herself. Same as Keisy. Same as me. Abandoned and lost. It was hard to find ourselves back. A long journey. But not impossible to pass. Just where to start? On snowy frost swamp far away from civilization? Why not? But… long ago I’ve lost human’s voice. I couldn’t communicate with them. And they were too young to become Tokotas. But… maybe there was still possible to turn them into elders? It happened in past already. But did I have strengths enough to achieve it? Did I have necessary tools?
- Why do you hate me so much!? – Keisy’s scream scared me. He suddenly awoke from some kind of nightmare.
- Hey, calm down, it’s safe – Qiz said.
- Safe? – he asked surprised.
- You had a nightmare.
- Oh, I see.
- Just it?
- What else can I say?
- “Sorry” perhaps?
- Sorry for what?
- Uh… never mind… I’m just tired. And hungry. And I want to go back home.
- So let’s go.
- You know the way?
- The same we used to come here, what’s the problem?
- Problem is that it’s night already. I can’t see any way! What more Tea Rose is really tired.
- So seems we need to stay here till morning.
So many problems and it’s just a top of the iceberg…
- Keisy, can I ask you a question?
- Yeah, ask.
- How do you earn?
- Oh, why you ask about so sudden?
- Had no occasion. So how do you earn?
- I don’t.
- Oh, I see… well… can I ask one more?
- Feel free to ask as many as you wish.
- So… how to you get the money?
- From my father.
- He must really love you then.
- You think so?
- Yeah…
- But why?
- Why? My mother left me when I was six.
- What about father?
- I never met him.
- Maybe… maybe you are right. Somehow. But…
- Keisy?
- Yeah?
- You really don’t know how do I look like?
- Why it matters so much for you?
- You do or not?
- I don’t and I don’t really care about. You can be the ugliest troll in the world. It’s fine for me.
- Could I be also a snow witch and it would be fine too?
- Just don’t say you are a snow witch.
- It would be fine or not?
- Fine, fine, just…
- Just what?
- If you really are the snow witch, then I really regret I’m blind.
- Why?
- Snow witches are the most beautiful and the most sensitive creatures in the world.
- Sensitive? You mean weak?
- Not really. It can be a weakness, but it can be also the power. You can see more than other species.
- I can’t.
- Maybe you simply don’t know why.
- No one taught me that.
- Can you taught yourself?
- How?
- I don’t know… I’m really tired today already. But tomorrow I can help you think about. If you want of course.
- Why not. So goodnight then. I’m tired too.
- Goodnight.
Maybe still was some hope for us?
The Journey
Really rough and sketchy text about my Tokota and Tokota's handlers, but I just wanted to write it. It's part 4.

Illustration: fav.me/daxhlu4
My folder with Tokotas: kizzy-i-keinstein.deviantart.c…

Previous parts:
[1] fav.me/daxalpp
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