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Literature
The Journey
Keisy’s POV [Human]
No, I definitely couldn’t say I enjoy being blind. But believing that there is no cure was somehow comfortable. All of us, all 3 of us were cripple – me, Munakuy and Qiz. Just in this order. Monekuy before Qiz. Qiz lost her importance for me since Munakuy lived with me. Well, with “us” I should say. Qiz became just a dead wood. I didn’t need her any longer. But I promised her to to let her live at my place, to share with her my Munakuy. Well, at least until we’ll get one more Tokota for her. I should find one as soon as possible. Maybe we should look for a wild one? That’s not so stupid idea. Frankly, there is no known wild Tokotas at the moment, but maybe we’ll find any? Just… I didn’t suppose that Tokota will find me first. Especially that it was the same Tokota, who attacked me five years ago…
Qiz’s POV [Human/Snow Witch]
This what Keisy said about the wild Tokota and hunting sounded li
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Keisy by Kizzy-i-Keinstein Keisy :iconkizzy-i-keinstein:Kizzy-i-Keinstein 2 3 Flower Exercise - Rose by Kizzy-i-Keinstein Flower Exercise - Rose :iconkizzy-i-keinstein:Kizzy-i-Keinstein 8 0
Literature
The wrong one
The wrong one
Keisy’s POV [Human]
What was wrong with Qiz again?
She irritated me a lot, but… did I have a choice?
Chasing dreams we use to think only about things we can gain. Rarely about these we can lose. Dreams are meant to make us happy, aren’t? Question is what does it really mean “the happiness”. Five years ago I was pretty sure I know the answer. But I didn’t. I still don’t really know it. It wasn’t proving I’m the best – I was – but it brought me more problems than it was worth to. Just exactly then I lost my eyesight. I risked everything and I lost everything. From elite handler I became… does it really matter any longer?
When I lost my eyesight I realized that I feel far better without it. Not right after, for long time I couldn’t conceals with it, but with time I did. At least partially. As if I was healed at last, whatever I was suffering from. Eyesight meant a pressure for me. That much pressur
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Flower Exercise - Orchid by Kizzy-i-Keinstein Flower Exercise - Orchid :iconkizzy-i-keinstein:Kizzy-i-Keinstein 4 0 Firefly trees by Kizzy-i-Keinstein Firefly trees :iconkizzy-i-keinstein:Kizzy-i-Keinstein 8 2 Nidalee Acrylics 90x60cm by Kizzy-i-Keinstein Nidalee Acrylics 90x60cm :iconkizzy-i-keinstein:Kizzy-i-Keinstein 4 1 Ace of Swords Tarot Card by Kizzy-i-Keinstein Ace of Swords Tarot Card :iconkizzy-i-keinstein:Kizzy-i-Keinstein 10 1 High Priestess II Tarot Card by Kizzy-i-Keinstein High Priestess II Tarot Card :iconkizzy-i-keinstein:Kizzy-i-Keinstein 14 10 Common outside by Kizzy-i-Keinstein Common outside :iconkizzy-i-keinstein:Kizzy-i-Keinstein 8 3 Night Mist for AriahDLyn by Kizzy-i-Keinstein Night Mist for AriahDLyn :iconkizzy-i-keinstein:Kizzy-i-Keinstein 9 0 Pulchra Deceptus 2 by Kizzy-i-Keinstein Pulchra Deceptus 2 :iconkizzy-i-keinstein:Kizzy-i-Keinstein 6 0
Had you ever a feeling that you are not the same person any longer? It feels as if you suddenly entered into someone else's life and inherited all his or her problems, skills, tasks, friends... You're looking at these things and think "what is it? Do the previous owner of this life really needed this thing that much?" Or "who is that? Why to keep relation with someone like this?" And when getting rid or this "weird stuff" is done you're realizing a lot of things are... missing. And you start collecting them from the scratch. With no judging, no expecting, no old fears nor "imprints". Just with totally fresh point of wiev, distance and open mind. You think "How all these things and people could be so neglected? It's more important than all that stuff that ended in trash a moment ago." Just a lot of things to do, but with new energy, and without that old toxines any longer.

It happened to me a bunch of times in my life. Just like last month. It usually is preluded with everything getting worse and worse (and did), what always ends in the Abyss (did as well). I spend there some time, let my mind die, transform. It hurts a bit, but I trust the spirits who guide me there. Then just observe like new things born from the ashes. I left the Abyss as someone else. The better one, the stronger. It doesn't happen too often. Once a few months/years in my case. Good it happened right now. Now I just need to tide some mess that previous me left, unable to bear it any longer. I don't blame her, it's just a human nature. From my new point of wiev it's not that bad.

Anyway, going back to my (her?) gallery, I need to upload some my works I did since last time I was here and go back to social life at last.

So this post is just a quick "hi, I'm back :D".
  • Drinking: green tea

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Kizzy-i-Keinstein

Artist | Hobbyist | Digital Art
Poland
About me

I love drawing and writing. I am the professional game developer, I worked for few years in game dev industry and now I’m starting my own studio.

I’m interested in astrology, I listen to k-pop and c-pop, but also Ludovico Einaudi. And I love cat ^__^ (I have 2 crazy ones).

Sometimes I reply very slow and I don’t want that someone feel touched or disrespected with it. I really appreciate all comments, Notes, favs, Watches and all positive gestures from you all, so let me explain myself. I always do my best to reply to all comments, Notes and all your activity here I get, just sometimes I need up to few days (months? ^^' uh.. it happens too....XD) to do that, even if you see another activity on my profile like posting new stuff or faving, giving llamas etc, but this funny film explains it quite well I think: youtu.be/bJnflQgrNT4 ^^. I always do my best to give constructive replies, to visit people who visit me and leave any feedback, so I prefer to give myself time to reply you with full attention and respect + have some time to charge my „social energy bar” mentioned in that film ^^’. So give me some time please ^___^, I surely will reply.

Activity


Running horse
It's acrylic painting on  60x80cm canvas. Took me 6h. I know it requires bit more work, but...

Anyway, self-critique:
- horse anatomy: head and neck are terribly, but rest is not bad.
- grass part is too big, it should be cut and I should give more space to sky...
- minimal palette is fine, but just blue and brown (+black&white) is really not enough... anyway brown+blue matches really well
- on begining I messed up the balance, but I fixed it adding trees.

Conclusions:
- practice horse's head
- practice composition
- practice this set of colours and gradually add new ones
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Exercise - Porcelain Lid
Coloured pencils Koh-i-Noor Mondeluz + H pencil for sketch.
Used colours: 1 (white), 36 (black), 28 (yellow), 64 (brown), 52 (blue), 72 (grey).

More still nature elements. Originally it's porcelain lid for aromatheraphy chimney.

Self-critique:
- Proportions are quite good.
- Edges are quite good.
- Colours are really good, it looks quite realistic.
- Shades are quite good.

Conclusions:
- Try this element from different angles.
- Draw rest elements of the chimney.

Took me 1h.
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Exercise - Porcelain Swan
Coloured pencils Koh-i-Noor Mondeluz + H pencil for sketch.

Some still nature elements tries. Originally it's porcelain figurine of the swan.

Self-critique:
- Proportions are not bad, but could be better.
- Edges are not bad, quite sharp, but I should use sharper pencils.
- Colours are quite good, but still far away from photosrealistic, but it's good start.
- Shades are quite good.

Conclusions:
- Pay more attention to proportions, not draw in rush, make break if needed to see better what I draw.
- Use sharter pencils.
- Do more such tries to see how far I can improve in tis way.
- Do exercises on a bit easier elememets.

Took me 2h.
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Had you ever a feeling that you are not the same person any longer? It feels as if you suddenly entered into someone else's life and inherited all his or her problems, skills, tasks, friends... You're looking at these things and think "what is it? Do the previous owner of this life really needed this thing that much?" Or "who is that? Why to keep relation with someone like this?" And when getting rid or this "weird stuff" is done you're realizing a lot of things are... missing. And you start collecting them from the scratch. With no judging, no expecting, no old fears nor "imprints". Just with totally fresh point of wiev, distance and open mind. You think "How all these things and people could be so neglected? It's more important than all that stuff that ended in trash a moment ago." Just a lot of things to do, but with new energy, and without that old toxines any longer.

It happened to me a bunch of times in my life. Just like last month. It usually is preluded with everything getting worse and worse (and did), what always ends in the Abyss (did as well). I spend there some time, let my mind die, transform. It hurts a bit, but I trust the spirits who guide me there. Then just observe like new things born from the ashes. I left the Abyss as someone else. The better one, the stronger. It doesn't happen too often. Once a few months/years in my case. Good it happened right now. Now I just need to tide some mess that previous me left, unable to bear it any longer. I don't blame her, it's just a human nature. From my new point of wiev it's not that bad.

Anyway, going back to my (her?) gallery, I need to upload some my works I did since last time I was here and go back to social life at last.

So this post is just a quick "hi, I'm back :D".
  • Drinking: green tea
Yay! Finally I did it... ;). Took me reeeaaally a lot of time, I know XD, but I wanted to do it with such attention and dedication as it deserves instead answering just with singualar words.  

Tell me one thing cecegrace: why you tagged me? Just randomly? Or you really wanted to know these things about me? Or more interesting for you was fact if I'll answer or ignore it ;)? Or somthing else? Feel free to be sincere, I'm fine with that :D. I value sincerity more than good manners (as long as kept on cultural level of course ^^'). Anyway I hope you'll be satisfied with my post (or at least the fact I did it) :D.

So let's start...

1. Name
First question and so hard already... whyyyyy ^^'?
Frankly I don't really use my name, I mean the one writen in my ID card (excluding these formal cases when I have to). No one calls me like this. So I see no reason to write it down here. It's heavy, not really match me. Or does, but I simply reject it? Who knows ;)? I use to change names/nicknames time to time, just like too small clothes. Once I've heard that every name is a challange, shortened version of todo list which it brings. I have no idea if it's true (personally I don't believe in such stuff too much), but I like this idea, it sound so magical and romantic ;). It adds to gray life some fun and colours. So long time ago I started reading about names, their meanings, other people bearing the same ones and analyse how it reflects in myself. I also started changing then when I wish. When I regarded their todo list as done.
The one I use on dA is really old, I don't use it in other cases any longer in this form. Here... I don't have premium account to change it XD, and frankly I don't have idea which one I'd chose as new.
Why I choosed such nickname these 9 year ago when I made this account? It sounds like name and surname, but that were 2 separated nicknames I used that time. As you can see they are linked with "i", what in Polish language means "and". So it means "Kizzy and Keinstein". This pair was something like Jekyll and Hyde (I see on Polish wiki that for English speakers "Jekyll and Hyde" is synonine of someone not sincere (it's true?), so it's not what I mean, I mean its meaning for Polish speakers, it means here someone calm outside and very dangerous, psychopatical inside). So Kizzy was my calm fallen in love girlish face, while Keinstein was this evil part of me - agressive, rebelious, and following his (yeah, he's male, Kizzy is female) own way.
Name Kizzy was crafted by my first love. Very painful love. It ended really badly. I stop eating, fell into anorexia (165cm and 35kg weight (my normal should be 56kg)). Kizzy couldn't belive it is end. She prefered to die instead believing it's end. So I let her die, why not XD? When she died at last, I finally started recovering. Now my weight is quite ok, but I have tendency to weight less than I should and I'm a bit skinny. But I really like being like this.
Keinstein's name was crafted from Kain + Frankenstein. I really loved Kain's character in Legacy of Kain series (I've learnt English myself only to understand this game (in school I had French only)! I was downloading script and translating dialogue by dialogue with dictionary XD I made 60 A4 pages of translation! Then I realized - wow! I understand English, I can communicate with people! Doing hundreds of mistakes is a minor thing here... ^^'). But I never take names of characters or people I like like this. So I altered it. I wanted to give it feeling of monster, something evil, opposite to Kizzy, so I mixed it with Frankenstein, I changed "a" in Kain to "e" that it sound German like. And it was done. Hmm... if I ever change my nickname here maybe just to Keinstein? Frankly I still use it. He survived and he's still one of my faces. He evolved a bit, got more (far more) mature, but he's still there. What more if I talk to myself I call myself just Keinstein and I decline it in male form. Hmm... it sounded like some kind of psychosis symptome... XD
So... that's about my (nick)name(s) XD.

2. Star Sign: Leo (if you're more interested I wrote more about it here: fav.me/daufdfb)

3. Average hours of sleep: usually 6-7h, but can vary from 5h to 14h

4. Last thing googled: "Jeckyl and Hyde" to ensure if I type it correctly and to realise I do not, it should be Jekyll, not Jeckyl XD

5. Favorite fictional character(s): Kain from Legacy of Kain of course, and few other bad guys (I generally have tendency to prefere antagonists :D (Keinstein's legacy after Kizzy's death XD?)) and of course most of my OCs (especially antagonists. You know how I create my characters? My sis Szczeniaczek noticed this weird algorith I repeat over and over: I create a charcater-protagonist, then I create an antagonist(1) for him (yeah, I mostly create male characters), I like the antagonist(1) far more, so I start neglecting the protagonist. I start treating the antagonist(1) like protagonist and I create for him his personal antagonist(2) XD. I totally forget about protagonist and have fun with antagonist(2), who is even better than the antagonist(1). In the end I create a woman for some balance (but I quickly neglect her too). So the essence of all my stories are these 2 antagonists. The protagonist and the woman become minor charcaters. That's a blueprint (do I use this word correctly in this context?) of every well constructed story I create (I don't count these not well constructed).

6. Live Action Film: I have no favourite. In general I don't like watching films too much. I could list some films I value, but I can't say that I'm somehow crazy about.

7. Animated Film: Wolf's Rain (Darcia was sooo stunning with his madness and noble way of being! I loved him! *__*) and Ghost in the Shell: Stand Alone Complex 2nd GIG and Stand Alone Complex: Solid State Society (and Kuze as antagonist... :heart:) - I didn't see the new movie yet, so no spoilers please! Anyway, just like with life movies - I don't watch a lot. I watched anime when I was younger. Since I don't draw manga styled stuff I don't watch it at all. Other animated movies too.

8. Current attire: loose clothes which I can put on my bandaged leg. Very warm. It's cold here today. I hate coldness.

9. When did you start this account?: 9 years ago (can I check somewhere the exact date?)

10. Number of watchers: 69 at the moment. But half year ago it was 14 only XD. Since I took care of myself, my artworks and my profile there is more and more :D. But the real reason is that I stopped being so scared about people and I started normally talk with them at last XD.

11. What do you post?: Mostly digital paintings, I'd name it dark fantasy (?). I'm not sure of the genre of this that I create XD, I just create. Anyway, I draw mostly characters. But I upload also traditional artworks and I write articles.

12. Do you get a lot of comments: I wouldn't say call it "a lot", but it's still more than I can asnwer on time XD. I am so slow in that T__T.

13. Why did you choose the username: At university I was dealing with shovinism a lot (I was only woman on computer science) and I struggled with choosing between to be a nice cute kitty (Kizzy) or a driven mad lion (Keinstein) so my nickname reflects my state of mind in that time ;). As I mentioned in question 1 - it's not really up-to-date ^^'.

Tags? Any of my Watchers feel free to fill it if you want :). (If non-watchers want too also feel free). Just let me know in comment or tag me in your post ;). I don't tag personally, because some people are fine with it, so just hate it and I don't know who is who XD (personally I'm usually fine with it if it makes sense but I'm really slow with it - to fill this one I needed 2 month XD). Anyway have fun!
  • Reading: grant shopping list...
  • Drinking: green tea

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GrimDreamArt Featured By Owner May 21, 2017  Professional Traditional Artist
Thanks so much for faving  Pen Buildings by GrimDreamArt  :D
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sansReAnne Featured By Owner Apr 10, 2017
Hi, thanks for the :+fav:!
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Kizzy-i-Keinstein Featured By Owner Apr 11, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
You're welcome ^____^.
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vw1956 Featured By Owner Mar 26, 2017  Hobbyist Photographer
Thank You so much for the :+fav: on  harvest 2016 by vw1956 :sun:
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Kizzy-i-Keinstein Featured By Owner Mar 26, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
You're welcome! It's really a beautiful shot!
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vw1956 Featured By Owner Mar 27, 2017  Hobbyist Photographer
:thanks:
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wiwaldi24 Featured By Owner Mar 17, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
:) (Smile) Thanks a lot. Handshake 
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Kizzy-i-Keinstein Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
You're welcome ^____^.
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FutureGrave Featured By Owner Mar 15, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you for your favorite. I hope to be able to write more that interests you ^^
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Kizzy-i-Keinstein Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
You're welcome :). Feel free to let me know when you have something :hug:. Your story was really good!
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