Back from the Abyss

Had you ever a feeling that you are not the same person any longer? It feels as if you suddenly entered into someone else's life and inherited all his or her problems, skills, tasks, friends... You're looking at these things and think "what is it? Do the previous owner of this life really needed this thing that much?" Or "who is that? Why to keep relation with someone like this?" And when getting rid or this "weird stuff" is done you're realizing a lot of things are... missing. And you start collecting them from the scratch. With no judging, no expecting, no old fears nor "imprints". Just with totally fresh point of wiev, distance and open mind. You think "How all these things and people could be so neglected? It's more important than all that stuff that ended in trash a moment ago." Just a lot of things to do, but with new energy, and without that old toxines any longer.

It happened to me a bunch of times in my life. Just like last month. It usually is preluded with everything getting worse and worse (and did), what always ends in the Abyss (did as well). I spend there some time, let my mind die, transform. It hurts a bit, but I trust the spirits who guide me there. Then just observe like new things born from the ashes. I left the Abyss as someone else. The better one, the stronger. It doesn't happen too often. Once a few months/years in my case. Good it happened right now. Now I just need to tide some mess that previous me left, unable to bear it any longer. I don't blame her, it's just a human nature. From my new point of wiev it's not that bad.

Anyway, going back to my (her?) gallery, I need to upload some my works I did since last time I was here and go back to social life at last.

So this post is just a quick "hi, I'm back ".